The healing nest.
nest: a place affording snug refuge or lodging; a home.
Anonymous:
aww man, i hope you won't be too disappointed... but i didn't realize this was a recovering from an ed blog. i thought it was just a place for healing and self love. i'm still going to follow you but it wish here were more blogs like this that wouldn't make it too personal - let the messages mean or stand for whatever the reader needs them too. just my own opinon, i still appreciate your blog though, please don't be offended. peace!

I’m not offended because it isn’t purely a “recovering from an ed” blog, never has been and never will be, however, I run this blog and I am recovering from an ed, therefore there are a lot of posts that relate to that (for ME). Like you said, others can let it mean whatever they need it to mean for THEM. I wanted to share something more personal about myself finally, for my healing, it goes much deeper than it being about ed recovery anyway. I hoped that some people (in ed recovery or not) would take something from it, don’t worry my blog is never going to get super personal but even if I did want it to that’s my decision xx

dear, dear, beautiful em! thank you so much for sharing those lovely photographs of your lovely self with us. i know it must have been hard, and it means a lot to me and tons of others that you took this step, not for us, but for yourself. thanks for everything you've done and for always being here. you're incredible. :)

Thank you my darling beautiful girl! As always, I appreciate your support so much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxox love love love you xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Thursday, 24 July 2014
"One day I just woke up and realized that I can’t touch yesterday. So why the heck was I letting it touch me?"
Steve Maraboli 
I'm so fucking proud of you!!! For everything you've done with this blog & standing by your convictions to focus on who you are INSIDE, but I'm UNBELIEVABLY proud of you for finally revealing the beautiful face that matches your beautiful soul. I understand every reason behind you choosing not to - I was a 'grey face' on here & every other social media site(even FB lol!) for a LONG time! I hope these aren't the last 'Em' pics to grace this space & I hope soon they're less in pain & more in joy X

Aw I love you so so much, thank you my darling! TOUGH ONE for sure! Loveeeeeee you xoxoxoxoxoxox

"There comes a point where you just go, ‘Ultimately, I don’t really give a fuck any more."
Helena Bonham Carter
"The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive."
L.L
Anonymous:
How do you get on with your life after breaking up with your love of a year and 2 months? Like how can you function without them? I don't know if I can and I need help

You absolutely can function without them…will it be hard? For a while, sure! But it will get easier in time. I’ve seen many of my close friends go through heart ache after a break up, i’ve seen them fall so low they thought they would never ever get up again unless their ex came back and picked them up off the floor…but guess what? That didn’t happen, they eventually picked THEMSELVES up. By taking it one day at a time, one emotional night on the couch eating a container of ice cream at a time, one knife to the heart when they had a reminder of what they’d lost at a time, they learned to cope.They allowed the pain to be there without pushing it away or numbing it, they cried to their girlfriends and vented as often as they needed to until eventually it didn’t sting so much.

This allowed them to stay open to love rather than close themselves off from it to prevent getting hurt again. By remaining open they have found new love that is more wonderful & beautiful than anything they had in the past. People come and go from your life, relationships end so new ones can begin. I truly believe it all happens for a reason and that the person you are meant to be with is out there waiting to cross paths with you. One day this wont hurt as much and it will all make sense. Until then, hold on and trust in the process. It’s okay to feel heart broken, allow the pain & stay open during the grieving process. Your heart will mend.

Sending you so much love xoxoxoxoxoxox

Anonymous:
Blessings! Thank you so much for your time and reply. You made me inspired for becoming more regular with meditations and mindfulness. I must say I love your ways to recharge dear! For me reading is always a must, if not a book then articles on spirituality, energy, vibrations and frequencies. Enjoying time alone, essential oils, music, staying in nature, hugging trees, trying to practice laughing yoga, LOL, and definitly getting regular with normal yoga lol. After recharge, sending love to all!

You have some ripper ideas in there I must try!!!! I have ALWAAAAYS wanted to go to laughing club! You have reminded me of it’s existence! Thank you :) xxxx

Anonymous:
Thank you. Thank you. For being who you are. For everything you do. For helping so many people with your kind words, your art, your smile. Thank you. Thank you for being here with us. Thank you for all the light and love you are, you wonderful soul. Thank you!

Well aren’t you just the most beautiful anon ever! THANK YOU so much for making me smile! You are the best! Your kindness does not go unappreciated I can assure you! You make a huge difference <3

Anonymous:
You are beautiful in and out, now and then

You are beautiful, thank you <3 <3 <3 xoxox

Anonymous:
Em! I am SO proud of you for this post. I can only imagine how you must have felt before letting this out into the world. I am SO glad you have though. For yourself and for others that need to hear and see this. You are brave and strong and are much much loved. It made my heart smile this morning seeing your beautiful face on here. Thank you for sharing babe. You will ALWAYS have a special space in my heart - sending hugs, Buffy :) xxx

Thank you so so so so SO much my beautiful friend! You are the best! I appreciate your support so much, always. I am really freaking out over the post but am trying to sit with it for a bit longer! Thank you!! LOVE YOU xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Wednesday, 23 July 2014
For over 4 years this blog, originally She Takes Flight, now, The Healing Nest has had no &#8216;face&#8217;. I know many of you on deep levels, many of you know me (I hope) on some kind of level. You know ME&#8230;the most important part of me anyway&#8230;who I am on the inside&#8230;but I&#8217;ve never posted a picture of myself on this blog so there has been no &#8220;face&#8221;. No visual to associate &#8220;The healing nest&#8221; with. I have virtually been yet another gray faced anon.
There are so many reasons for why I have decided to remain anonymous. Firstly, as I just said&#8230;I wanted people on here to relate to ME, not their &#8220;perception&#8221; of me through images. I wanted people to feel an authentic connection and understanding based on our humanity, our shared experiences and our heart and soul. What matters is who we are, not what we look like. Unfortunately, I feel so much of social media is based on what we look like and it&#8217;s one part of social media that I don&#8217;t connect with.
Secondly, my low self esteem, self hatred and shame has played a huge part in not allowing myself to be &#8220;seen&#8221;. My ED and poor self image has always convinced me that sharing photos of myself is not only arrogant and gives off the impression that I think I am &#8220;attractive&#8221; when I absolutely DON&#8217;T but also because I am so &#8220;disgusting&#8221; that people shouldn&#8217;t have to look at me and if &#8216;god forbid&#8217; they did see me, they would hate me &amp; judge me or something along those lines.
And finally, I&#8217;ve always been concerned about what I put out there on the internet in terms of future employability etc. I know that may seem &#8220;dramatic&#8221; but I know for a fact that employers search names before hiring and that scares me. I am the biggest judge of myself, I don&#8217;t want others to judge me in the same way that I do, especially if it prevents me from achieving my goals.
In every single one of these photos, from overweight to healthy to underweight I have suffered. A lot. I am sure there are many people out there who have had more extreme differences through recovery but for me and my body type, this was significant. All I want from this post is for you to come away with a little more understanding and empathy for ANYONE suffering from this hideous illness. Especially when the pain isn&#8217;t so obvious.
I&#8217;ve decided to show you my face. Not just my face here and now&#8230;but my face over the lifetime of having an Eating Disorder. This post isn&#8217;t just to introduce myself and challenge my thoughts but it is to show you all what an Eating disorder CAN look like over time. You can not look at somebody and know what they are going through based on their appearance. I want you to see how an Eating Disorder can not only effect individuals in a different way, but it can also effect that same individual in different ways over a period of time and that the size of their body or the way they look is in no way indicative of their pain or how &#8220;unwell&#8221; they are.
So&#8230;.Hi, my beloved little warriors, I am Emma (prefer Em). I have had an Eating disorder for over a decade and it has been expressed using my body in different ways throughout that time. I am now in strong recovery and am no longer ashamed of my journey. However I must be honest and tell you that this is one of the most DIFFICULT things I have ever done in recovery and it may become too much and if it impacts me negatively I will have to delete this. That doesn&#8217;t mean I don&#8217;t mean every single word, it just means it&#8217;s still a real challenge. I hope that by posting this I can give others the courage to embrace their own unique recovery process and not wait until you are &#8220;sick enough&#8221;.
If you are in pain&#8230;you are worth love and care and RECOVERY.
Love you all xoxo

For over 4 years this blog, originally She Takes Flight, now, The Healing Nest has had no ‘face’. I know many of you on deep levels, many of you know me (I hope) on some kind of level. You know ME…the most important part of me anyway…who I am on the inside…but I’ve never posted a picture of myself on this blog so there has been no “face”. No visual to associate “The healing nest” with. I have virtually been yet another gray faced anon.

There are so many reasons for why I have decided to remain anonymous. Firstly, as I just said…I wanted people on here to relate to ME, not their “perception” of me through images. I wanted people to feel an authentic connection and understanding based on our humanity, our shared experiences and our heart and soul. What matters is who we are, not what we look like. Unfortunately, I feel so much of social media is based on what we look like and it’s one part of social media that I don’t connect with.

Secondly, my low self esteem, self hatred and shame has played a huge part in not allowing myself to be “seen”. My ED and poor self image has always convinced me that sharing photos of myself is not only arrogant and gives off the impression that I think I am “attractive” when I absolutely DON’T but also because I am so “disgusting” that people shouldn’t have to look at me and if ‘god forbid’ they did see me, they would hate me & judge me or something along those lines.

And finally, I’ve always been concerned about what I put out there on the internet in terms of future employability etc. I know that may seem “dramatic” but I know for a fact that employers search names before hiring and that scares me. I am the biggest judge of myself, I don’t want others to judge me in the same way that I do, especially if it prevents me from achieving my goals.

In every single one of these photos, from overweight to healthy to underweight I have suffered. A lot. I am sure there are many people out there who have had more extreme differences through recovery but for me and my body type, this was significant. All I want from this post is for you to come away with a little more understanding and empathy for ANYONE suffering from this hideous illness. Especially when the pain isn’t so obvious.

I’ve decided to show you my face. Not just my face here and now…but my face over the lifetime of having an Eating Disorder. This post isn’t just to introduce myself and challenge my thoughts but it is to show you all what an Eating disorder CAN look like over time. You can not look at somebody and know what they are going through based on their appearance. I want you to see how an Eating Disorder can not only effect individuals in a different way, but it can also effect that same individual in different ways over a period of time and that the size of their body or the way they look is in no way indicative of their pain or how “unwell” they are.

So….Hi, my beloved little warriors, I am Emma (prefer Em). I have had an Eating disorder for over a decade and it has been expressed using my body in different ways throughout that time. I am now in strong recovery and am no longer ashamed of my journey. However I must be honest and tell you that this is one of the most DIFFICULT things I have ever done in recovery and it may become too much and if it impacts me negatively I will have to delete this. That doesn’t mean I don’t mean every single word, it just means it’s still a real challenge. I hope that by posting this I can give others the courage to embrace their own unique recovery process and not wait until you are “sick enough”.

If you are in pain…you are worth love and care and RECOVERY.

Love you all xoxo

Thursday, 17 July 2014
"Good health is not the absence of symptoms, it is the presence of peace. Do not confuse physical vibrance with spiritual vitality. You are not your body. Your body is simply a tool. A magnificent tool, for sure, but nothing more than that. As with all tools, your body will from time to time need repair. And one day it will wear down completely. Your soul will do neither. Not now, not ever. Listen, therefore, to the whispers of the soul, not the cries of the body."
Neale Donald Walsh (via liquid-diamonds-flowing)
Wednesday, 16 July 2014
"My heart feels so heavy and I don’t know how to carry it."
Sharon Dogar, Annexed   (via elauxe)
 
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