Oh gosh…really putting me on the spot dearest anon haha…
-I’ve studied…lots…visual merchandising, art therapy, photography and hopefully soon teaching or counseling (haven’t decided yet) I’ve stuck at uni and been committed to learning since leaving high school pretty much. (my head turns that into a negative but for the sake of this exercise, it could also be a positive :) )
-Last year I won the Australian Student Photographer of the year from two different professional bodies.
-For 8 years, I NEVER quit on therapy from my Ed, no matter how tough things got.
-I am probably 90% recovered food/behaviour wise.
- I traveled on my own twice in a year last year which was a major, MAJOR fear…it’s now become something I really enjoy.
-Loving my cats unconditionally (even when they cover every single item of clothing in white cat fur…and I wear a lot of black so it’s kind of a big deal haha)
-These are so external, just like all my ‘complaints’ from my previous post…ugh, I’ve just suddenly had a small epiphany…I think I focus so much on the “external” things because the “internal” things just WONT budge, nothing has really improved in that area so I can’t really be “proud” of any of it which really does make me sad but it is the way it is at this point in time…so external it has to be, for now…
I’m not sure anon…at the moment I’m just wanting to get through the next two weeks of uni and I will think about it after that…I’ve started to think maybe I just need to see how I go on my own though, I have spent SOOOOOOO many years in therapy and haven’t really been getting much out of it over the past year so yeah…maybe I will try a different approach, I’m not sure. Thank you so much for being so kind and supportive though xoxoxoxox
2/2 you are doing a wonderful thing by helping people like you do. I try to help people and end up feeling silly because they don’t seem to want my help. :C I wish I could help people like you do. I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone. I also recovered from an eating disorder when I was younger, and I have had terrible relationships and abuse in my past, and I’ve survived. I just have to keep reminding myself that I am strong, and I am important. And I hope you know you are too <3
the-healing-nest says: Aw my sweetheart! You are just the most beautiful doll <3 Thank you so much for writing to me, it’s great to know there are some others around my age still hangin’ out on tumblr hehe ;) and also others who know the thoughts & feelings that come with “ageing” faster than you are actually growing…feeling younger than you are. It’s tough. I really, REALLY understand your fears about turning 30 but like everyone has said to me, at the end of the day age is just a number, you are only as old as you feel…and…my god…Just in that small paragraph you have written to me I can tell you plenty of things you have achieved and should feel SO, SO, SO goddamn proud of…firstly you have a beautiful little girl, a child YOU created…is their anything more precious? You have recovered from an Eating disorder, I know first hand just how incredibly difficult that is, one of the most difficult illnesses to overcome (in my possibly bias opinion) AND you have SURVIVED something no one should ever, ever, EVER have to endure. You are spot on, you ARE strong, you are an absolute inspiration and I love you dearly already. I am sure you help people, you have helped me, just by sharing this small snippet of your story. Keep goin girl, your life will be beautiful, no rush, no pressure, no expectations…just treasure each and every moment and you will look back on each of these “little” things and realise they are actually the really BIG things. Sending you so much extra strength (not that you really need it, it’s all inside you) Lots of love, Em xxxxxxx
ha ha ha ha omg you are the cutest anon! Sorry no, I was just joking!! But I have pretty good intuition and I know that other anon will recover ;) xxx